I decided to follow up and report that today is the day I finally decided to take the rest of it off, my hair that is!
I had a different idea for a post today, but after looking at the calendar and reflecting a bit, I changed my mind and decided to follow up on the Should a Chemo Patient Shave the Hair Off and If So, When? post from October 7th. That particular post was probably the most difficult one for me to publish (so far) due to the very personal topic of going hairless. The picture was certainly not one of my most flattering either! Surprisingly, to me at least, that also quickly became my most viewed post thus far. I guess perhaps every chemo patient relates most closely to this going hairless dilemma.
This day marks a special juncture in my cancer journey. Not just because of the hair shaving decision, but because it feels like a turning point of sorts for a variety of reasons. I have finished chemo (I’ll be posting more on that next week), I have reached the five month point since my bilateral mastectomy, I received my final tissue expander filling, I will be having more surgery in exactly one month, it’s November (the post-chemo month I have been longing for since July), I now begin the next phase of treatment -hormone therapy, I have been blogging for two months and I have determined I will begin looking for that elusive “new normal” with redefined diligence.
In other words, I guess I am moving on. I know I will be on this cancer journey for the rest of my life because once you are diagnosed, it never really ends. None-the-less, today seems important for these and other reasons as well.
Later today when I take the scissors to my hair and then the shaver to my head, I will still cringe and probably even shed a few more tears. I will also silently congratulate myself on making it to this point and “doing it my way” as the song says. I kept my hair, not much I must admit, but I kept it until I was ready to shave it completely off. Some people feel more in control if they shave it off early on. The opposite was true for me, I chose to wait and let it fall out on its own. Again, we are all different in how we handle this and that’s how it should be. Cancer patients often feel like they are losing control and this is one area that is literally in their hands.
It’s often hard to speak up or ask questions about the important stuff like unfamiliar treatment regimens, embarrassing side effects, fear of recurrence and countless other things when you have cancer and are feeling at your most vulnerable. I want to say, “You can do it.”
Whether it’s something as simple and “unimportant” as keeping your remaining strands of hair or something more crucial such as deciding upon a treatment option, go ahead, speak up! Don’t be afraid to voice your concerns or opinions. Ask as many questions as you need to. Let yourself be heard. It’s your body. It’s your cancer journey. It’s your life.
Now it’s time to go get those scissors and that shaver!
WHAT WAS THE HARDEST THING YOU EVER SPOKE UP ABOUT?
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