Side effects – chemo and my morning coffee.
Has cancer treatment (any sort) messed with your sense of taste? If so, it can be so frustrating, am I right?
Since beginning my chemo regimen, I’ve been experiencing the usual side effects like hair loss, neuropathy, poor sleep, flushing, achiness and the other big one – fatigue. But one side effect I never anticipated to be such a ” biggie” is the alteration of my taste buds.
I miss actually tasting my favorite foods, but I think what I miss most is the enjoyment of my freshly brewed cup of coffee each morning.
Luckily, I can still savor the aroma.
Dear Hubby makes the coffee most mornings at our house. It just seems to turn out better when he makes it. For years now, we have started each morning sipping our cups of the steaming liquid, savoring the aroma and spending a few minutes together enjoying the quietness of morning while easing into the new day.
This time of year, I enjoy watching the darkness quietly change into daylight as each new day unfolds. I look forward to seeing the towering white pines in my backyard slowly reveal themselves each morning like mysteries unfolding. At first, they are invisible, totally concealed in darkness. Then, as dawn meanders into the horizon, they become shadowy and gray. Finally, and almost unexpectedly it seems, it’s light and there they are – standing tall, proud and majestically in the new morning light.
I know they are just trees, but they represent strength and stability to me these days. Things to be counted on. I need such things.
Since chemo, my morning coffee doesn’t taste quite right, and yes, I feel resentful about this unwelcome disruption to my routine.
The coffee’s flavor is somehow off, and mostly, I just feel the hotness of it. Like every cell in my body I suppose, my taste buds are altered. Food and other beverages as well taste odd, so why should I be surprised that my coffee tastes odd as well?
My taste buds seem confused, unable to distinguish between different flavors and tastes. There is no range of taste; now things just seem to either taste pleasant or not pleasant.
Even though I can’t taste my morning coffee these days, holding a familiar cup or mug with the steaming brown liquid is still comforting. Going through the motions of sharing a cup of coffee with Dear Hubby and lingering for those extra minutes still feels good.
Even chemo can’t rob me of that.
I am wondering how long it will take for my taste buds to recover when chemo ends. Such a minor worry when there are so many other far more pressing matters to face in the months and years ahead. But sometimes it’s those little things in life that seem to matter most – like enjoying a morning cup of coffee.
Thanksgiving will be here before we know it. I sure hope I get my sense of taste back by then!
HAVE YOU EVER LOST YOUR SENSE OF TASTE?
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