One of the very first thoughts I had this year when I flipped over the calendar to 2104 was gosh, it’s been ten years. I then wondered if anyone else in my family had had a similar thought. I didn’t ask them. I don’t know why I did not.
Regardless, it’s now been ten years since cancer slithered its way into the inner circle of my family and robbed us all of more than a small amount of innocence, stability and peace of mind. And of course, a few years later it robbed us of a mother, a wife, a sister, an aunt, a friend, a grandmother, a great-grandmother and more.
Things have not been the same since that day ten years ago.
How could they be?
Ten years ago, on my birthday no less, was when my mother discovered the tiny lump in her right breast. Ten years ago my mother said to me, “Nancy, I’m so sorry to be the one to forever spoil your birthday.” (I don’t feel she did that by the way).
You see as I’ve written about before, my parents were supposed to be on their way to my house that fateful February day to celebrate my birthday. My mother was big on birthday celebrations. Instead, I got the call and heard her quivering voice relaying her unwelcome news. Her usually steady voice suddenly was not, but instead was filled with nervous apprehension. I knew immediately upon hearing it that something was terribly wrong. I was right.
Yes, ten years ago cancer, the uninvited and very unwelcome
guest intruder, showed up for my birthday.
That fateful February day was the beginning of an unimaginable chain of events.
My mother’s domino effect was set in motion that February day; as was my own, though I did not realize this at the time.
Mine continues still.
But this post isn’t about any particular domino, well other than that first one I guess.
2014 is just another year. It holds just another February. This February holds just another birthday. This birthday is just another reminder.
I make room for the reminders because I must.
I want to remember. I need to remember.
And so I do.
What reminders do you make room for because you must?