A trip to the dentist

A Trip to the Dentist & Details, Details, Details…

The other day I found myself sitting in the dentist chair for my semi-annual cleaning and checkup. I had been putting it off for quite some time because I hate going to the dentist. Let me rephrase that, I hate having dental work done. This is sort of mind boggling even to me. I mean I’ve had a bilateral mastectomy for crying out loud, been through chemo, endured numerous reconstruction surgeries (among others), successfully delivered three babies with no pain reducing medication what-so-ever (why no pain med I do not recall now). So clearly I have a decent pain threshold and yet, I really don’t like going to the dentist and I avoid it whenever possible. Go figure.

I started having tooth pain over the holidays, so I decided to not put it off any longer. But this post isn’t about going to the dentist per se. It’s about setting boundaries when out and about in the world sharing (or not sharing) cancer details.

At this latest appointment, I had a new hygienist and I really liked her. She was the chatty kind, which is fine with me; in fact, I like it because it distracts me. So of course as we were getting to know each other a bit, she inquired about what I do. Always a ‘dangerous’ question for the person who works from home, like I need to prove that I’m working or something…

“I’m a writer,” I said thinking I’d leave it at that because I didn’t really wish to go into all the cancer blogging/writing and such details. I’ve learned that sometimes less is more, plus, my mouth was wide open.

But she was persistent and kept asking me what I write about.

“I maintain a blog and also write for other various publications,” I responded between instruments and rinses.

Again, that persistent thing. “What’s your content about?” she wanted to know.

And so I finally said, “Breast cancer.”

Then, of course, there was that moment of silence. Have you ‘heard’ it?


She then almost immediately went on to call me courageous, which seemed pretty ironic because there I was sitting in a dentist chair feeling quite cowardly. Next, she went on to tell me about a family member of hers who had been diagnosed with breast cancer (early stage) a while back and whose cancer has come back. I mention this because she also said something along the lines of, so and so caught it early and followed everything by the book and still, it came back. This suggested to me once again that yes, in fact, there is a line of thinking out there that implies, ‘just catch it early and you’ll be fine’ and taking it even further; if you just ‘do cancer right’, it shouldn’t come back. It’s not quite that simple.

Metastatic breast cancer is never anyone’s fault. I just had to say that. And I did, though not in those exact words of course.

Well, there was still more cancer talk and I must give my new hygienist credit for asking me if I was comfortable with being called a survivor. For some reason she seemed enlightened about that word’s heaviness for some of us. We also had the discussion about the word ‘cure’ and how most of us for whom the situation applies, instead use NED (no evidence of disease).

Yes, we covered a lot of ground in that mostly one-sided conversation; keep in mind my mouth was mostly wide open as I was getting my teeth cleaned. Like I said, she was chatty, but mostly in a good way.

So I am wondering again, when you are out and about in the world, just how do you handle sharing your cancer details? Of course, our dentists do need to know this stuff for various and obvious health-related reasons. But the hygienist? Maybe not. It was totally my choice to share. I didn’t have to.

Do I need to work on setting sharing boundaries?

I went through something similar with my first post-chemo haircut and then again when my favorite stylist left. My hair is weird, so I often find myself trying to explain it to stylists, when in fact, I probably wouldn’t need to share the cancer side of it. So mostly I don’t share with ‘hair people’ anymore because; well, it can be tiresome after a while to keep talking about the big C when out and about, don’t you agree?

And yet, I’m torn. Why?

Because I always like to take any and every opportunity to listen and find out what others are thinking about breast cancer and also to share my opinions and yes, hopefully inform when appropriate of course.

But how much is too much and when do you just say nothing at all?

I’m still trying to figure out this thing called survivorship.

One final thing…

Regarding that tooth pain I mentioned, there’s a root canal in my near future. Oh boy.

And it’ll be with a new specialist. I wonder how many details I’ll need/choose to share this time.

How many cancer details do you generally divulge?

Do you take every opportunity to listen, learn and share, or do you prefer to ‘keep quiet’?

And okay, I have to ask, has anyone had a root canal and if so, how was it?

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A trip to the dentist
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30 thoughts to “A Trip to the Dentist & Details, Details, Details…”

  1. Hi Nancy,

    Once again, you hit on a topic I can so relate to. At what point do we set boundaries? I feel that sometimes I’m too open, but then again, I’m also able to help others by being open about my having had cancer. It’s amazing how many people have come to me with stories of relatives/friends going through such trauma.

    It’s especially difficult to have a conversation at the dentist’s office. A lot of folks, like your hygienist, are curious. Before I was starting chemo, I told my dentist and made sure my teeth were in good shape. He empathized greatly with me. I love my dentist.

    And I have had a root canal. Just ask for maximum novocaine (being heroic is overrated), and the procedure is then painless. After the novocaine wears off, that tooth and your jaw might be a little sore for a day or two, but nothing an over-the-counter pain reliever can’t fix. Compared to all you’ve been through, it’s easy. But I know that saying this doesn’t make it easier for you.

    Good luck with the tooth. Dental work is never fun.

    1. Beth, I’m usually pretty open too, but like you said, it’s hard to have a conversation while sitting in the dentist chair. My hygienist was very curious and she did have that personal experience of her family member, so that peaked her interest even more. I couldn’t help but notice the surprise in her voice about her family member’s recurrence. It’s not all about catching it early, though of course, you know that. I’m glad you love your dentist. And yes, I am not looking forward to that root canal, but it sounds like it’s not too bad. Thanks for sharing about yours.

  2. Root canal is a piece of cake if they are able to numb you. I was one of the weird ones that couldn’t be numbed from the side and they had to stick a needle right up inside of my newly drilled tooth to apply the meds directly to the nerve.

    Did you just throw up?

    Honest though, after that initial awful moment, it was fine. Well, as fine as fine can be when smelling the smoke coming out of your own mouth.

    As far as chatting it up about cancer, I’m either quiet as a mouse or I become the Cancer-Tourette-Syndrome girl. I just start spewing information in a nonsensical manner, usually leaving the other party gobsmacked.

    1. Kim, Oh my, that does not sound pleasant at all… My tooth in need of the root canal has a crown on it, so I am hoping it doesn’t crack or fall apart. Not sure what happens then. I had to laugh while reading your last paragraph. Sometimes I start spewing too. And then other times… quiet. I suppose that’s how most of us are. Thanks so much for sharing.

  3. In general I’m “out” about cancer, in part because it’s been obvious as I’ve made the rounds in my chemo cap. (I ended chemo 3 months ago so my hair’s been growing out.) I had dental work done prior to chemo; my hygienist lost a relative last year to cancer. The dentist’s husband (who works the front desk) gave me a hug before my immunity dropped. There’s a medical reason for my being forthright, too — I had to put off my dental X-rays because I was getting radiation, and will have them at my next check-up instead. I just cleared everything with my radiation oncologist on that score.

    I’ve had 2 root canals. Neither was painful except on my wallet.

    My partner had her haircut while I was still bald. The proprietor had herself gone through chemo and had lost her hair.

    I’ll see how or if my communication dynamics change now that I’m done with active treatment. Good luck with the tooth.

    1. Elissa, I’m pretty ‘out’ about cancer too – pretty obvious as I blog about it, right? I remember before chemo I was told to go to the dentist and get anything pressing done before I started. I do realize it’s imperative for those tending to any area of our health needs to be informed, but sometimes, as in the case of the hygienist… I probably wouldn’t have shared if she hadn’t pressed me. Still, it was my choice to share. Sometimes it’s hard to know where to draw the line. Thanks for sharing.

  4. I didn’t see my dentist for some time because of chemo. I found it hard to tell him about my cancer. In a way, I felt like I was letting him down with the news. Isn’t that weird?

    I’ve been quite open about my Cancer and it being stage IV. Many times it has been awkward. Especially with the “but it’s gone now, right?” people. I still feel like if my daughter is around I give a censored answer.

    I don’t think the root canal should be a problem as long as they numb you. That is the worst part, ironically.

    1. Kate, Cancer plays strange mind games, that’s how I’d explain why you felt you were letting your dentist down. And yes, I bet you’ve experienced more than a few of those awkward moments. Thank you for commenting and for the encouraging word regarding the root canal. I actually feel less worried about it now.

  5. Well this is just too weird, but you and I are definitely on a similar schedule because I also just had a dentist appointment last Saturday (and we just recently had similar oncology appts)! I find that the hygienists just LOVE to talk about health, in general. Oh, the conversations I’ve had with them about breast cancer would curl your toes. And yes, they ask a LOT of questions, they don’t seem to have any personal boundaries about health related topics. I hope the root canal isn’t too bad, make sure you ask for a lot of novocaine. I personally think that dental work is more painful than childbirth! But if they give you enough novocaine, you’ll be ok cause once it’s done it shouldn’t be very painful afterwards, maybe just for a day and nothing that Motrin can’t handle.

    1. Claudia, I guess we are on similar schedules! I’m curious now about those toe-curling discussions. Maybe it’s part of their job to keep conversations going. Thank you for sharing and I will be sure to ask for plenty of novocaine.

  6. Great post, Nancy! This is just the sort of thing I think about when going to the dentist, or eye doctor, or as in my case today, podiatrist. How much do we share? And do we want to deal with the stories and all the questions? Today, I went for it and included my history and within minutes I knew my nurse and the doctor’s wife both had been diagnosed within the last two years. I think it gave them some comfort to know I was diagnosed over 5 years ago and seem reasonably well. But, it was interesting for me, being on this side of it. Removed, somewhat. So, I was glad I spilled the beans today, but I have been in uncomfortable situations many times where I just don’t want to give too details to all the questions. I’m sorry you need a root canal. I fear the dentist, too! So much. It stems from my childhood dentist, who’s eye glasses were always dirty. Great post! xoxo

    1. Stacey, I practically jumped up and down when I saw your comment. I miss you. Do you think you’ll be blogging again anytime soon? Isn’t it strange how when we share so many times we discover those we are sharing with are going through stuff too, or someone in their lives is? Spilling the beans is very often worthwhile in the end. But of course, we have to be at least somewhat comfortable when we do decide to ‘spill those beans’. I am picturing you sitting in the dentist chair now as a child peering at your dentist’s dirty eye glasses. That’s funny. Thanks for sharing. Wonderful to hear from you.

  7. I have become weary talking about cancer for the past nearly 6 years. It’s the same story going around in my head and at times wish I had a recorder, tape it all say here listen give me the recorder when you are done.
    I find that some people want to hear all the dirty nitty gritty stories, the pain the agony the sensationalism of it all. It’s not TV this isn’t a movie script. It’s my life and I have decided now that I’m just not feeling that open to talking about My cancer with someone I may never see again. Maybe it sounds harsh… but I really don’t care.. Bottom Line it’s my comfort level that I do care about.. nor rehashing every detail ..
    Alli xx

    1. Alli, It can make a person weary. I think you’re right that some people do want all the nitty-gritty details and others want as little as possible. Yes, it is your life and you are free to live it and share (or not share) about as much or as little as you choose. Your comfort level should be your top priority. Thank you for sharing about how you handle this kind of situation. So great to hear from you too. Always wonderful to hear from readers I haven’t heard from in a while. Hope you’re doing well.

  8. My husband just had a root canal. Ick! I can’t speak to that topic. People who know I have cancer and start to ask questions will stop themselves often and ask if I am comfortable with the questions and talking about it. I think it is very nice of them, but I am pretty much an open book when it comes to cancer. I figure some people have to be, or we end up with misguided conceptions out there. I try to help educate the populace, of course I hardly knew anything about breast cancer and also thought you were in good shape if you caught it early. I discovered my dentist’s office knew extra about my situation when I stopped by last because apparently my husband was talkative on laughing gas during that root canal (I was in surgery when he was getting it done). It made me laugh a bit. 🙂

    1. Mandi, That is really nice when people ask if you are comfortable with questions and such. Fantastic tip for others to keep in mind. Your comments about your husband’s root canal, laughing gas and ‘talkativeness’ gave me a chuckle. Thank you!

  9. Argh almost didn’t read this post because I am terrified of the dentist, even now, after all the horrible and painful cancer treatment. Crazy me, I just don’t like people coming at my face with pointy objects.
    I am always extremely forthcoming with my cancer details with any health encounter–even the optometrist, I handed them a list of all meds on my first post-treatment visit, and they were most grateful.
    Your conversation with the hygienist, oh-so-familiar, is disturbing, but not surprising. More than once I’ve run into health care professionals that buy into the mythology of breast cancer, whether it be the “caught it early” trap your story here illustrates, or those highly intelligent nurses who insist a positive attitude is the real medicine, despite no evidence of such a thing. BTW I always find it odd when a nurse spouts the positive attitude a best medicine approach–if that were true the nurse would have to find a different job. I always wanna scream–embrace science and medicine–the backbone of your paycheck!
    Anyway, this is an interesting dilemma you pose here. I tend to get too quickly frustrated by the kind of ignorance or mis-education you describe here, and refrain from engaging, rather than taking an opportunity to inform and enlighten. I did it just the other day. I suspect this will be an ongoing thing for me.

    1. CC, I’m glad you decided to read my post. I don’t like people coming at my face with pointy objects either! Who does I guess. I am forthcoming with my cancer details, too, when it comes to health care encounters of any kind. I hadn’t thought about the optometrist, and I should, as I have an appointment coming up soon. I’m with you regarding anyone, not just nurses, spouting the positive attitude thing as real medicine. This does not mean I’m negative. Well, you and I are on the same page there… Thank you for reading and sharing. I hope you do take opportunities to engage whenever you feel up to it, as there still is way too much misinformation out there. Thanks again.

  10. How timely! I have a dental appointment Monday.
    Good luck on your root canal.
    I’ve gone to the same dentist for a very long time. I was even aware the reason she had left her solo practice for a group one where she could have shorter hours a few years before, was due to her mother having breast cancer. (I think a gossipy hygienist had told me.)
    During chemo, surgery, and radiation, I ended up missing cleanings and check-ups. To my amazement, youngest daughter actually scheduled her own appointments. But, when the dentist asked about me, each time she just said, “Mom’s busy.”
    I finally got in. New young hygienist gave me a lecture on my missed check-ups before asking about health and medication changes and updates. Looking back, I should have said something the moment she started to lecture about missed appointments. When she realized I had been in cancer treatment during that time, she was very embarrassed and upset. (But, I bet she never lectures another patient about missed check-ups like that again.)
    When my dentist came in, she had already seen the updated medical record and greeted me with a hug. She emphasized it is very important from now on that she be kept up to date on meds and treatments as some can make a difference in dental treatments I can have. You can’t get a root canal on xgeva. (Part of a combo for bone mets.)
    I actually consider it a blessing to have the dentist I have. With each treatment change, she researches the effects on dental health and if there are treatment limitations.

    1. Elizabeth, It sounds like you have a wonderful dentist. As I mentioned somewhere, I was told to get needed dental work done before starting chemo. It’s too bad that hygienist lectured you. I’m sure it turned to be a real learning experience for her. I guess that you as an educator, can look at it that way. Thank you for reading and sharing. Thanks for the good wishes too. Good luck at your appointment too.

      1. Because I had Inflammatory BC, they rushed me into chemo too fast to even get a check-up. I was actually due one right about then.
        And I think I have a wonderful dentist, too.

  11. I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma, HER-Neu+, ER+ in March 2011. I had excellent care from caring physicians, but no one advised me to get dental work done prior to onset of chemo & radiation. I was a dental chicken with a high gag reflex prior to FBC. Now, three years since the completion of treatment (I just take Femara), I am scared to go to the dentist. Yes, I know that I need to go. I have an unreasonable fear that my teeth will fall out, or I will need extensive dental work, Due to underemployment, I do not have dental insurance, or much money to pay for treatment. I am always on top of my medical appointments (I do have health insurance). Why am I fearful of going to a new dentist?

    1. Shayna, I understand your hesitation and yes, fear. You’ve been through a lot and of course, there is the cost ‘fear’ too. Most dentists will do a payment plan of some kind if you ask. Hopefully you can find an especially kind and compassionate dentist. Don’t worry about being ‘late’ or lectured to for missing checkups. Most dentists are very professional and are only concerned with the here and now. And your teeth probably aren’t in as bad condition as you are imagining, but even if they are, it’s their job to help you and not judge. Good luck.

  12. A week before my mastectomy, a friend told me I should go to the dentist. I did and had to have 3 cavities filled. Because it was so close to my surgery, he didn’t want to use any drugs on me. All I had was a pair of clenched hands, a string of Hail Mary’s in my head and a doctor that kept me calm. He is a throat cancer survivor so there wasn’t any silly conversation.

    As for telling people who are new in my life – I just joined a dating site so I think I’m about to learn a lot!

    1. Mae, Gosh I can’t imagine having dental work done without some kind of pain prevention. Yikes. And yes, I will be interested in reading more about how that goes for you on the dating site. Undoubtedly, you will learn a lot! Good luck.

  13. Great post! I generally don’t share much about my cancer, as I find that stage IV really scares people. They don’t know what to say. What they do say can be very hard on me and very draining. I am sorry you had to go through that situation with the hygienist. Some people respect others’ privacy, but many do not and keep asking more probing questions. Those who are more sensitive (with good emotional intelligence) tend to be my friends. Thanks for sharing from your heart. xxx

    1. Jan, It’s wonderful to hear from you! I don’t blame you for not sharing when you don’t have to as I’m sure it is draining for a lot of reasons. Respecting a person’s privacy is important, but of course, it was my choice to share with my hygienist, though I had not intended to. I’m glad you have those sensitive friends in your life. Thank you for sharing and I am thinking of you as you move forward with the next phase of your treatment. Hope you don’t have to wait too long.

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