Every year, I share a guest post for National Hereditary Cancer Week. And btw, I am thrilled with this name change. In the past, this week was designated as National Hereditary Breast & Ovarian Cancer Week. It’s past time (way past) to make this name change. The new name (thank you, FORCE), is far more inclusive.
You might want to read, Is It Time to Start Calling National HBOC Week & HBOC Syndrome Something Else?
This year, I am excited to share a piece by Lara Huffman. Some of you are familiar with her terrific blog, Get Up Swinging. (If you’re not, do check it out!) Lara was diagnosed with breast cancer ten years ago at the age of 30. She recently learned about a genetic mutation she carries (not BRCA) in her DNA.
I know you’ll appreciate Lara’s piece. When you finish reading, be sure to ask a question or leave a comment for Lara below.
Cowden’s Syndrome: Big Head, Big Problems
by Lara Huffman
After getting yearly mammograms (sometimes bi-annually) and ultrasounds for five years, I was diagnosed with Stage 1 breast cancer at age 30. That was ten years ago.
One time during that five-year period, an older woman gently asked me what I was doing in the waiting room for a mammogram since I was so young. Like her, I was sitting in an uncomfortable chair wearing a hospital gown in the shade of Pepto Bismal, waiting for my name to be called so I could just get it over with.
Aren’t you too young to be here?” she asked.
I stared at her and blinked a couple times.
“My mom was 35 when she was diagnosed and 40 when she died.”
She had nothing to say after that. What can you say to a woman in her mid to late-20s (who looked like a teenager to some people) who just threw down the Dead Mom card?
I’m sure she meant well, but why else would a young woman be in the mammogram waiting room if not for a very good reason?
For most of my 20s, I knew I would get breast cancer. Even though my 20s was a time of uncertainty and a series of really bad decisions, I was incredibly certain about getting breast cancer. I knew I would get breast cancer just as I knew my name. I am, after all, my mother’s daughter. I look like her, talk like her and walk like her.
After my diagnosis 10 years ago and being violently pushed onto the cancer treatment bus, one of my stops along the way was genetic counseling. (Get on! But I don’t want to get on! Where am I going? Haha, wherever the bus driver wants to go. I’m scared – why is it going so fast?)
The two reasons why I agreed to genetic counseling to see if I had the BRCA mutation were: 1. My brother’s three daughters and 2. If I had the mutation, I would’ve opted for the double mastectomy then and there.
When the genetic counselor called with the results of the BRCA test and told me it was negative, she recommended I come back for additional genetic tests. She brought up my well-above-average head size and history of thyroid issues (i.e., a goiter that made me look like I had an Adam’s apple and made me incredibly hyperthyroid), that suggested I might have something called Cowden’s Syndrome.
I did a quick internet search on what Cowden’s Syndrome was, and right away, I knew this was what I had. However, I was a scared-shitless 30-year-old with breast cancer, and I did not have the emotional capacity or support system to deal with the diagnosis of a rare genetic mutation on top of everything.
When I researched Cowden’s Syndrome 10 years ago, I read how those with it were high risk for a long list of cancers. Cowden’s Syndrome, as defined by the U.S. National Library of Medicine (link):
Cowden syndrome is a disorder characterized by multiple noncancerous, tumor-like growths called hamartomas and an increased risk of developing certain cancers.
Almost everyone with Cowden syndrome develops hamartomas. These growths are most commonly found on the skin and mucous membranes (such as the lining of the mouth and nose), but they can also occur in the intestine and other parts of the body. The growth of hamartomas on the skin and mucous membranes typically becomes apparent by a person’s late twenties.
Cowden syndrome is associated with an increased risk of developing several types of cancer, particularly cancers of the breast, a gland in the lower neck called the thyroid, and the lining of the uterus (the endometrium). Other cancers that have been identified in people with Cowden syndrome include colorectal cancer, kidney cancer, and a form of skin cancer called melanoma. Compared with the general population, people with Cowden syndrome develop these cancers at younger ages, often beginning in their thirties or forties. Other diseases of the breast, thyroid, and endometrium are also common in Cowden syndrome. Additional signs and symptoms can include an enlarged head (macrocephaly) and a rare, noncancerous brain tumor called Lhermitte-Duclos disease. A small percentage of affected individuals have delayed development or intellectual disability.
I already felt like I was being crushed by breast cancer. If treatment for a single cancer felt like a bus from hell to me, a genetic mutation meant that I would never ever hop off the bus and wave goodbye to the other passengers. I wouldn’t have been able to handle it.
Fast forward eight years when a fellow, young-adult breast cancer friend reached out to me. “Sarah” was in her late 20s when she was initially diagnosed with Stage 2 breast cancer, and she also was BRCA negative like me. Sarah told me her breast cancer had come back Stage 4 and updated genetic testing showed she actually did have a Palb2 genetic mutation.
Sarah thought of me and decided to reach out to see if I ever went back to get updated genetic counseling. I had not, but hearing of a friend’s Stage 4 diagnosis was just what I needed to crawl out of my denial hole and get this over with once and for all.
Plus, I was in a much better place. I had been seeing a therapist regularly for six years and had been on medication to help with my generalized anxiety disorder and depression. I also took up running to help me cope with my anxiety.
I had the support system, this time around, to handle the diagnosis.
To the surprise of no one (especially me), genetic testing showed that I do have Cowden’s Syndrome, which is a mutation of the PTEN gene. I will let the PTEN Foundation’s website (link) explain it further:
One of PTEN’s roles in the body is as a tumor suppressor gene, which means that when it’s working properly, PTEN helps suppress the growth of any cells which are trying to grow out of control and become tumors. All of our genes come in pairs; persons without PHTS (PTEN Hamartoma Tumor syndrome) have two working PTEN gene copies in each of their cells. In people with PHTS one of these PTEN gene copies has a change that makes it not work in each of the body’s cells. As you can imagine, this puts people with PHTS at increased risk to develop tumors.
Basically, my tumor suppressor gene does not work properly, which allows cysts and tumors to have a field day in my inside and on the outside, too. (Hey, I’ll take the thyroid, and you go invade the breast and burn that down. Let’s go raaaaage and fuck some shit up.)
Even though I was in a better place when I got this diagnosis, not going to lie, it was still rough and a lot to process. I was correct when I thought I wouldn’t have been able to cope with it back when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. My new diagnosis also made me relieved that I have never had kids because this genetic mutation in my family tree can end with me.
I have a lifetime condition, which will mean seeing an oncologist and getting preventative (I hope) screenings for the rest of my life. I get to play tumor whack-a-mole, and I have zero control over this.
I never get to “graduate” and stop seeing my oncologist after the 10-year mark, or at anytime, for that matter. In fact, I see him twice a year and have routine blood work, IVs, CT scans, colonoscopies and whatever else this sadistic whack-a-mole game requires.
It’s exhausting, and sometimes I do indulge myself in a pity party. I am human.
Afterwards, I move on and do my best to live my life as a genetic mutant. I go for a run. Talk with friends. Discuss my fears with my therapist. Walk in the woods. Pet all the dogs.
I try to focus on what I can change and accept what I cannot.
My future may be filled with endless doctor’s appointments, scans, anxiety, and trauma inflicted on my body, but I will do my best to live a life in spite of this condition.
Just please don’t call me brave or inspiring. I hate that.
This mutation is a part of me, my literal DNA, but it’s not all that I am and aspire to be.
About Lara: Lara Huffman lives in Pittsburgh with her two mutts, Boomer and Mal. She enjoys running, photography, and destroying a Pink Ribbon Culture and exploitation. Visit Lara’s blog, Get Up Swinging, and be sure to like her blog’s Facebook page too.
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